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Still Into YouWhy am I still so hung up on you ?!
It's been 9 months 8 days ...
The clock chimes midnight
Another day has passed.
Another day of nothingness,
Another day without you.
I still think about you,
They'll tell me I'm stupid and
I should get over it , but I can't

I no longer sleep at night.
Too busy
Thinking,
Wishing,
Analysing
Everything,
Every conversation,
Smile,
Touch,
Looking desperately for a deeper meaning,
A deeper title than 'just friends' as you repeatedly called us.

I do wonder..
What's it like from your perspective ?
I pass your workplace everyday
Looking in
With hope
That maybe you'll look up and notice me
That I'll s

One or the OtherEither I'm
Starting to
Hate you

Or my loneliness
Has found its voice
And it keens
All night long

Dead and Drowned.I feel so empty.
Like there's nothing left to do.
I'll be gone before I'm twenty.
It's not fake, it's all true.

I'm afraid I might fall.
Leaving this hell of a life.
It's like climbing a never ending wall.
I hope it's better in the afterlife.

I try to do things the right way.
but seems like I just fail.
Last breath and I'm calling out mayday.
Can someone please end this awful fairy tale?

Bruises might fade.
But scars will remain.
I'm being followed by a shade.
Slowly turning insane.

I wish I could be cold.
With no fucks to give.
But I guess feelings can't be sold.
So I just have to forgive.

I guess everything has an end.
Some words are

What I Want.No tears, will be here.

Found a broken heart in you;

Your words in my head.

We feel likewise dear.

Perfect footsteps as you walk,

and the things you said.

I struggle and fear,

As my vision tunnels; fades.

Our past is so dead.

I said, what I said,

And you should know what I mean.

This feeds my anger.

Sharp gaze like a spear,

I’d fall forever for you,

If time could just mend.

LiesWhy has reality been hidden from me my entire life?
Why didn't you tell me that it wasn't right from the beginning?
I'm not stupid.
You forced me to grow into an adult as a ten year old, forced me to take the responsibilities of your crimes.
I am the one whose shoulder you always lean on, the ear to whisper everything in.
A person who must always agree with you, without any own opinions.
I guess it was my fault, really.
I could've said no from the very start.
But I was weak.
I was too weak to find out the cold and bitter reality you've hidden from me since I was born.
You lied to me.
You said everything was okay, that we would make it through.
We did, but you never thought of me in the process.
Thought I could take it, because I was considered an adult when I really was a child.
A screaming child.
Crying.
Unknowing.
Sobbing.
A person whose childhood is gone since long.
You took my life away from me.
Made me accept all your lies and comforting words in the

The Abuser

hi, there!
i'm casting off all my
bluesy, blowsy layers
untangling the threads of
what shouldn't have stayed
stitching the best bits back
together again
forever and again
i shall be the one you want
(this is heaven, i think
i wouldn't know
but he says it is, so...)

i am designed to please
once i get past what i was
created, now, to be
you need a towering paragon
of strength, of love, of virtue
i can give all that and more
for you won't take the other
you won't take my other self
forget her
(you taste like diamonds
darling of mine
sharp and beautiful)

come, love
bring me back again, please?
when you to

This is How it FeelsConfined.
Restrained.
Unaligned.
Reclaimed.
Tomorrow.
Goodbye.
Sorrow.
Nearby.
Stand.
You.
Strand.
You.
Fading.
Anyway.
Maybe.
On your way.
Move.
Return.
Groove.
Concern.
Forward.
Like.
Toward.
Psych.
Embrace.
Left.
Face.
Theft.
Fall.
Off.
All.
Soft.
Best.
Ways.
Chest.
Days.
Increase.
Expand.
Cease.
Out of hand.
Much.
Away.
Such.
Stay.
Go.
Favor.
Joe.
Savored.

---

Our time is confined,
our actions restrained.
Three months unaligned
until we're reclaimed.

School's out tomorrow
Where we'll say goodbye.
I'll meet with my sorrow,
not having you nearby.

I can barely stand
the weekends without seeing you.
School's my only strand
of time I CAN

True FriendshipAm I a true friend?
For telling you what is wrong or right,
For giving you a small insight,
For telling it's wrong to bite?
Am I a true friend?
For giving you so much false hope,
For praying that you could cope,
For hoping that you could bear this load.
What is a true friend?
Someone you can tell your lies,
Someone you can share with pride,
Someone that is by your side?
Why be a true friend?
To be that one that could find some fame,
Being with someone to share the blame,
To have some place that you could aim?
There's no such thing as a true friend.
No one is a true friend,
Because true friendship is indefinable.
If you call me a true friend,
So be it.
If you want to be close to me,
So be it.
But if you're looking for a true friend,
you better look somewhere near the lee.
Because your true friend,
Sure as hell isn't me.

Mississippi and Friday NightsIt is a cloudy Friday night during the fall
The full blast of autumn chill is in the air
As one goes by a Mississippi town, both large and small
One could tell that the smell of two cross-town rivals is there

The townspeople can sense when The Big Day comes 'round
They close their stores for their evening in their town

The smell of cooked hamburgers, the aroma of hot dogs capture the senses
But all the action, one hour from now,was about to take place beyond the stadium's fences

Within the walls of the field house stood the visiting team, cleats clomping on the floor
The four school buses that took them there stood parked right near the f

The LetterThe Letter

A creature,

A fiend,

not of Earth, not of Heaven, not of Hell.

The Letter is a creature born from the darkness of the tortured mind.

Conceived out of insecurities and bred through madness and depression.

The worst part, there is no cure for it. There will always be a letter.

Nothing can stop it, not even Jesus himself.

Broken HeartsI swore my heart
and you took it out,
I thought I loved you
but was it true?

I cannot run,
I cannot cry,
I will not even try.
You said something
that broke my heart
and put me in the dark.

I write with an arm
that has been harmed
by a dreadful curse,
that will not heal but get worse.
I hurt myself in the midst of hell,
I hide away in my shell.
My dreams are haunted by your face,
My heart was put in a broken case.

FrostbitePress your lips
against mine,
And breathe out
cold winter winds,
Your fingers touch
the side of my face and the bottom of my heart,
Freezing me
over like the stream yonder
when the snow falls down,
Wrap your cold, dead arms
around me,
And never let go,
Because you are all I have,
And all I will ever have,
For I feel no pull from 'em gals yonder,
Only a slight flick o' my compass
pointing to 'em others,
Whom would never have me,
So I plead ya stay,
With me
my dear
Lady Loneliness.

Let me be me

Every time that a voice calls out
Something inside me breaks.
I try hard not to turn around
Because I know they’re fake.
Their whispers, jokes, and painful lies
Just never will abate.
My hands are tied behind my back.
I never will escape.

They will always laugh at her
Cuz she’s always alone.
Every day at 3 o’clock, she
Struggles her way home.
Her fosters all rejected her,
The streets she starts to roam.
And still they laugh at nothing,
At the soil from which she’s grown.

They call this one boy stupid,
But really, he’s just lost.
He’ll never pass a history test
With facts that he forgot.
He fights the figh

Me or You“Me or You”

Your head got too big,
and your heart too small.
Ego dancing a jig,
as rationality falls.

Who done it?
you question,
with watery eyes—
Who done it?

Me.
That was your answer.
Me.
Not…yourself, but me.

Your head swollen with perception,
convection…heat…
a whole lot of misconception,
and dreams you just can’t beat.

Like the whispers of the willows,
one day the realization will sink through,
that the reason our relationship failed…
wasn't me.

It was you.

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This Planet

by ~BudCharles, Dec 23, 2012, 10:34:31 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Urban & Spoken Word

Every hope,
Every fear,
Every laugh,
Every tear...
On this planet

Every joke,
Every speech,
Every forest,
Every beach...
On this planet.

Every life,
Every death,
Every beat,
Every breath...
On this planet.

Every fight,
Every war,
Every deadly
Carnivore...
On this planet.

All the tribes,
Pointless pride.
Every theft,
Homocide...
On this planet

But we can win,
We can change,
Peace is within
Our range...
On this planet.

We have to stop
The pointless fights.
People of the
World unite...
On this planet.

For endless riches,
Endless feasts;
All we need
Is endless peace...
On this planet.

Earth, the world, everything you know and love...
This planet is your home and you can make a difference.

This Planetby ~BudCharles

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Urban & Spoken Word

My view is that if the world could cut down on military spending, we could easily use those resources and that money to fix poverty, stop climate change, and improve health education and save the economy, as well as increase science funding and inhabit and use space.
It frustrates me to no end seeing people spending so much money, time, and ultimately lives on fighting each other, when we could be making the world a beautiful, clean, free, peaceful and fair place for all instead.
So I made this :3

~LylatheGlaceon Dec 25, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Wow
*Speechless*

~BudCharles Dec 25, 2012

You like it?

~bluepupx17 Dec 23, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

I don't believe in peace. No matter how much we hope and pray and plead for peace and solutions to all the worlds problems, there will always be cynics like me who just wanna watch the world burn. There will always be conflict, no matter how small. And it doesn't take much for something small to snowball into something big. Like the assassination of archduke franz ferdinand causing ww1.
It'd be nice if everyone could get along. But let's face it. People get bored. And when they get bored they pick fights.

~BudCharles Dec 23, 2012

I have never started a fight out of plain boredom. That's just pathetic.

~bluepupx17 Dec 24, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

That's not necessarily what I meant. I meant more like humanity as a whole. Like countries getting bored and starting wars. If individual people did that I agree it would be pathetic.

~BudCharles Dec 24, 2012

Countries getting bored? That's even more screwed up.
You know what though, we could play on human psychology instead of trying to change it. Why don't we declare 'war' on poverty, or 'war' on climate change, instead of war on different countries?

~bluepupx17 Dec 25, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

That's like the number one argument antiwar hippies make everytime a new war pops up. I really wish we would declare war on all those things, the problems that really matter, but I just don't see it happening. But we can all hope.

~BudCharles Dec 25, 2012

Well hoping for change is about as useful as sitting under the stars and hoping to fly to the moon. We have to get up and do something, anything as a species.
The best solution would be a global government, but somehow I doubt anyone will do that.
However it's not the only solution.
If we haven't managed to cut our pollution dramatically by 2030, the climate will be beyond our control, so we need to act quickly, the technological singularity, which may save us, won't happen until at least 2050, so that isn't what we're looking for.
Some kind of economic reason is obviously going to be the only thing, and I can see it staring us in the face. At the moment Earth is running out of resources, and gaining people, but everything outside of Earth is the same as it was at the dawn of civilization. There is much more oil on moons and asteroids than there is in the middle east. So if the money being spent on fighting over these small amounts of oil was spent on getting control of space, then the government would make far more money.
And at the moment Saturn is 10 years away, but that time will probably be cut to 2 years at the most if enough time and money is invested in science.

~bluepupx17 Dec 25, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

Yeah.

~ChaotiKitsune Dec 23, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

You made this? It's amazing! Can't stay on cause my family just came for dinner 0w0

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